I finally finished...I finished the website. They provided the address and everything, but i had to figure out what to put on the pages and insert LOTS of HTML code to make it look decent. it was a nice learning experience!!
http://chrissi.myarbonne.com
CP
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Monday, August 21, 2006
8.21.2006
Greetings all.
Its been a while since I have blogged. Not that I dont have anything to say, just not much that i want to share with the world. I am doing well with Arbonne. Get discouraged sometimes, but i suppose that is normal. I have a lot on my plate right now, though today i officially finished my last project with Virtuallnk. Somewhat of a relief, but scary at the same time. I have an interview tomorrow and another one on Wednesday. I am not really sure what i want to do. Sorta want to go back into my comfort zone, but also feel the need to expand my zoning.
Been dealing with alot lately...just rushes of emotions with the new crossroad in life. Maybe one day ill figure out what i really want outta life. I can almost guarentee it wont be the norm.
Mrs.P
Its been a while since I have blogged. Not that I dont have anything to say, just not much that i want to share with the world. I am doing well with Arbonne. Get discouraged sometimes, but i suppose that is normal. I have a lot on my plate right now, though today i officially finished my last project with Virtuallnk. Somewhat of a relief, but scary at the same time. I have an interview tomorrow and another one on Wednesday. I am not really sure what i want to do. Sorta want to go back into my comfort zone, but also feel the need to expand my zoning.
Been dealing with alot lately...just rushes of emotions with the new crossroad in life. Maybe one day ill figure out what i really want outta life. I can almost guarentee it wont be the norm.
Mrs.P
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Hmmmm
So this week Ruth Ann has been calling me at 5:30 in the morning to go walking. I have actually gone. This morning I got no call...I was somewhat disappointed and somewhat relieved because i went to bed sorta later than i would have liked. So now i should be working, I have made a lot of progress this week but still hate to send my stuff for review because of the critiques. I think i truly despise my job more every day. Nat keeps telling me to take classes and grow more and i will like it better. maybe if i knew what i was doing i would feel more comfortable and productive. I dont know. I think overall i am just frustrated in general. I hate taking my frustrations of life out on Nat. Its not his fault. I am not sure what i want. I want a friend to hang out with. I want to have people i can have deep thoughtful conversations that dont live 6 hours away. I want to grow spiritually. I want to be loved...i know i am loved. Nat is very good about loving me, and so are my friends in Ohio and elsewhere...but i am talking about being loved, for people to seek out to hang out with you because they think you are so cool. I have met people and they have my phone number but no one has really reached out. Brinlee reached out alot, and she is moving away. I thrive by people, and i feel so alone all the time. I sit in the house all day staring at a computer screen. I sit all night, mostly staring at a computer screen. I really miss the interaction with people. I almost feel like sometimes i forgot how to be around people. I am sure that is like riding a bike...
So we thought that maybe i could go work at CSE, not for CSE but just sit at a desk or something so that i am out of the house and around people. Its an option, but I am not too sure about it yet. It just doesnt feel comfortable to me. I think about getting another job, but then I also think of how much i have on my plate right now and that getting another job would just take away from the jobs i have now.
Arbonne is such a relief. I see the potential to make friends and hang out with people and make money. Its like the light at the end of the tunnel. I dont think Nat really knows what to think. I made my first order last night and I am officially an independant consultant. I have a number and a pin and everything. I am very excited. I think it may be what i am looking for to escape my current situation. Its hard to be proactive about your life and not have people babysit you through it. I really have to decide what I want and go for it despite others opinions or preconcieved notions.
Another cool note, I started the Breaking Free Beth Moore study again. I am not putting it on a daily schedule, thats too much pressure and guilt. I have done a couple days, talking about disobedient kings of judah. I have done it once before but i have a feeling that it will be EXTREMELY different this time around. My struggles are definately different. WE'll see how well that goes. I am not a very good Bible reader...nothing every really hits me. I guess part of me feels like i know it all already. Of course i dont.
anyway, i need to go get breakfast and get some work done so i feel productive and valid today. sad eh?
love you all..i am excited to see you next week.
Mrs.P
So we thought that maybe i could go work at CSE, not for CSE but just sit at a desk or something so that i am out of the house and around people. Its an option, but I am not too sure about it yet. It just doesnt feel comfortable to me. I think about getting another job, but then I also think of how much i have on my plate right now and that getting another job would just take away from the jobs i have now.
Arbonne is such a relief. I see the potential to make friends and hang out with people and make money. Its like the light at the end of the tunnel. I dont think Nat really knows what to think. I made my first order last night and I am officially an independant consultant. I have a number and a pin and everything. I am very excited. I think it may be what i am looking for to escape my current situation. Its hard to be proactive about your life and not have people babysit you through it. I really have to decide what I want and go for it despite others opinions or preconcieved notions.
Another cool note, I started the Breaking Free Beth Moore study again. I am not putting it on a daily schedule, thats too much pressure and guilt. I have done a couple days, talking about disobedient kings of judah. I have done it once before but i have a feeling that it will be EXTREMELY different this time around. My struggles are definately different. WE'll see how well that goes. I am not a very good Bible reader...nothing every really hits me. I guess part of me feels like i know it all already. Of course i dont.
anyway, i need to go get breakfast and get some work done so i feel productive and valid today. sad eh?
love you all..i am excited to see you next week.
Mrs.P
Thursday, July 27, 2006
so its Jamaica and all
Jamaica was fun. we were trapped on a complex with two different villas on the very small (but present) beach. we went to margaritaville and some falls. overall it was a good trip, hangin out with the fam and friends. other than that notmuch has been going on. I have a meeting today with a lady in Morton that sells arbonne as well so hopefully we can encourage each other and get some meetings going on around here. She is the only person i have come across that sells it around here, which is a good thing. Gives us somewhat of a monopoly but also it sucks because then its a little harder to learn about how we are to go about things.
Cheryl and Becky are having parties for me in August. I will be in town the 10th-14th. I think we have decided to focus more on the make-up aspect but will still focus on the skin care. Look up some details if you want, but come to the party because they will be fun. www.arbonne.com
Life is pretty boring but soon to be way busy and overwhelming. I will be good though. I will be making friends and money at the same time. I know you all are probably pretty sick of me talking about arbonne, but i seriously think it may be a good thing for me. It is a chance to make enough where i can quit the job i hate and make more money that i ever have before. we will see how it goes. mainly i want to lead others to financial freedom. This is one avenue that has worked for many people and i think that i can make it work for me.
anyway. bible study is over. I am sorta sad. Brinlee is leaving for Brazil soon, but i still have Ruth Ann. I would be a mess without her. She is like my only friend in Illinois (besides Nat, of course).
Steve, Hope's husband, went to the hospital on Tuesday night/Wed am with internal bleeding. They had him in ICU. Apparently he had too many aspirins or something. It was caused by pain medicine. Nat and I went to hang out with Hope at the hospital on Wednesday afternoon. I think now is ok, they were doing another test on him today and he probably got to go home, i am not totally for sure. She is not very good at about keeping people updated. Probably doesnt want to bother anyone, i can understand that.
No one is writing in their blogs. i feel so ALONE in the blog world. come on people, i KNOW something is going on!!!
Anyway, see you all in a couple weeks. If anything interesting happens or if i happen to have any epiphanies i will make sure i let you know.
Love you
Mrs P
Cheryl and Becky are having parties for me in August. I will be in town the 10th-14th. I think we have decided to focus more on the make-up aspect but will still focus on the skin care. Look up some details if you want, but come to the party because they will be fun. www.arbonne.com
Life is pretty boring but soon to be way busy and overwhelming. I will be good though. I will be making friends and money at the same time. I know you all are probably pretty sick of me talking about arbonne, but i seriously think it may be a good thing for me. It is a chance to make enough where i can quit the job i hate and make more money that i ever have before. we will see how it goes. mainly i want to lead others to financial freedom. This is one avenue that has worked for many people and i think that i can make it work for me.
anyway. bible study is over. I am sorta sad. Brinlee is leaving for Brazil soon, but i still have Ruth Ann. I would be a mess without her. She is like my only friend in Illinois (besides Nat, of course).
Steve, Hope's husband, went to the hospital on Tuesday night/Wed am with internal bleeding. They had him in ICU. Apparently he had too many aspirins or something. It was caused by pain medicine. Nat and I went to hang out with Hope at the hospital on Wednesday afternoon. I think now is ok, they were doing another test on him today and he probably got to go home, i am not totally for sure. She is not very good at about keeping people updated. Probably doesnt want to bother anyone, i can understand that.
No one is writing in their blogs. i feel so ALONE in the blog world. come on people, i KNOW something is going on!!!
Anyway, see you all in a couple weeks. If anything interesting happens or if i happen to have any epiphanies i will make sure i let you know.
Love you
Mrs P
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
OH Our LUCK!!
Here is an amusing story. VW called Nat today to have him come in and sign some more papers. Apparently something went awry. We bought a 2003 VW Jetta for 17,891, with nats trade in we got a very sweet deal. The car is loaded and 2006 retail is like 36000. We sorta wondered all day why the price was so low. I mean VW keep their value for quite a while and it was fairly cheap for being a loaded 2003. Here is the funny part....Nat had to go in and sign papers for the car we REALLY bought. They had the serial numbers mixed up and we were really supposed to get another Passat that wasnt nearly the one we got. Ours was supposed to be like 25,000. So we definately got a GREAT deal!!!! not everyday that the dealership will take more than 7,000 off a car...this time they did it by accident. How sweet is that?? usually you buy a car in negative equity, we drive off the lot with 6-8000 IN EQUITY. it still makes me giggle inside. Now i really think we should've got teh two for one deal (ya know, cause i am carless!).
Anyway..thought i would share
Mrs P
Anyway..thought i would share
Mrs P
Friday, July 07, 2006
life
well i have had a bad day. i guess what gets me most in my job is that i dont feel like i can ever do anything worthy of approval. Its like being in art school all over again. i guess the one thing that gets me to a point of quitting is having the thought in my head that i will never measure up. despite the progress i still feel like i dont know enough and will ever be good enough. is that something that is taught?
all well. I guess i just let my inadequacies get the best of me. shows what i really think about myself. if i told myself everyday that i loved my job and made myself be passionate about what i do and learning more, i wonder if i would have so many bad days.
i am trying to figure out how to survive in life, do what i love, and still be financially secure. i love being around people and helping them, and in this job i am all alone all day long and feel helpless. where i am today is one day closer to where i want to be, what am i doing today to get where i want to be? where do i want to be? what do i want to accomplish in life?
i am truly happy being married to Nat, i wish that was enough to feel secure in myself as a person. It only makes me content in life, but doesnt change the rough parts. I think that one day it will just click, ya know, like i will know what to do. That day has yet to come. i dont want to wait around anymore, but there jsut doesnt seem to be enough time in the day to learn, work and play. i have all the ideas in my head of who i want to be and what i want to change...just not enough time to accomplish everything.
i guess i am talking in circles.
so some fun news. Nat and i went on a date yesterday. its always fun to be with him outside the confines of these four walls. we were supposed to go to see superman returns but ended up going to the VW Dealer. we traded in Nat's car for a 2003 VW Passat. i think we got a great deal. We had been discussing getting a four door for more room and accessability. i think its beautfiful!! black with silver drive...wood paneling, leather. oh its perty. Nat loves it (which is good since he will be the one driving all the time =)). One day i will have one of my own. it saddens me sometimes going shopping. I told Nat it puts me in my place...ya know...what i want and what i can afford. what i want...2006 VW Jetta loaded...or a Mercedes Benz...Audi A6 Quatrro..what i can afford, a 1991 beat up ford explorer (cause its free). Sucks sometimes.
so i have decided to start arbonne. hesitant because i dont think people will be very receptive. something about selling things that you believe in but feeling rejected. I guess thats something you have to deal with though. i really feel like i can be successful. I have been contemplating starting for about a year, collecting info and making sure its what i would really strive to be successful at. compared to other network marketing, its top of the line. i would like to schedule some parties (they will be fun!!) gives me an excuse to come to cinci. =) parties are fun because hosts get cool benefits and you dont have to do anything but be there. nice eh? anyone interested? i am sure i will call on you eventually.
jamaica is less than two weeks away. I am excited but nervous all at the same time. lots of pressure from all sides in my life i guess. miserable eh?
i have lots of projects to do, i would like to get them all done asap so i can make more money, but thats not going to happen...a girl can dream though!
anyway. i think thats it. later loves
Mrs. P
all well. I guess i just let my inadequacies get the best of me. shows what i really think about myself. if i told myself everyday that i loved my job and made myself be passionate about what i do and learning more, i wonder if i would have so many bad days.
i am trying to figure out how to survive in life, do what i love, and still be financially secure. i love being around people and helping them, and in this job i am all alone all day long and feel helpless. where i am today is one day closer to where i want to be, what am i doing today to get where i want to be? where do i want to be? what do i want to accomplish in life?
i am truly happy being married to Nat, i wish that was enough to feel secure in myself as a person. It only makes me content in life, but doesnt change the rough parts. I think that one day it will just click, ya know, like i will know what to do. That day has yet to come. i dont want to wait around anymore, but there jsut doesnt seem to be enough time in the day to learn, work and play. i have all the ideas in my head of who i want to be and what i want to change...just not enough time to accomplish everything.
i guess i am talking in circles.
so some fun news. Nat and i went on a date yesterday. its always fun to be with him outside the confines of these four walls. we were supposed to go to see superman returns but ended up going to the VW Dealer. we traded in Nat's car for a 2003 VW Passat. i think we got a great deal. We had been discussing getting a four door for more room and accessability. i think its beautfiful!! black with silver drive...wood paneling, leather. oh its perty. Nat loves it (which is good since he will be the one driving all the time =)). One day i will have one of my own. it saddens me sometimes going shopping. I told Nat it puts me in my place...ya know...what i want and what i can afford. what i want...2006 VW Jetta loaded...or a Mercedes Benz...Audi A6 Quatrro..what i can afford, a 1991 beat up ford explorer (cause its free). Sucks sometimes.
so i have decided to start arbonne. hesitant because i dont think people will be very receptive. something about selling things that you believe in but feeling rejected. I guess thats something you have to deal with though. i really feel like i can be successful. I have been contemplating starting for about a year, collecting info and making sure its what i would really strive to be successful at. compared to other network marketing, its top of the line. i would like to schedule some parties (they will be fun!!) gives me an excuse to come to cinci. =) parties are fun because hosts get cool benefits and you dont have to do anything but be there. nice eh? anyone interested? i am sure i will call on you eventually.
jamaica is less than two weeks away. I am excited but nervous all at the same time. lots of pressure from all sides in my life i guess. miserable eh?
i have lots of projects to do, i would like to get them all done asap so i can make more money, but thats not going to happen...a girl can dream though!
anyway. i think thats it. later loves
Mrs. P
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
married life
i always thought i would love being married, and of course i was right. I am usually right about what i thought i would want...i said USUALLY!
Nat is wonderful. Half the time i dont know how he puts up with me. I am a girl, through and through, with the random girlish spats. I am independant through and through too, so its hard sometimes, but we manage well. Yet to get into a fight, though we do have little tantrums sometimes (more like him putting up with my tantrums).
I have been working alot lately and trying to get all my projects till septemeber done this month. I think i can actually do it, we will see.two week from today that we go to Jamaica. I am excited. It will be so much fun and a much needed vacation i think. a laid back event in the sun. I am most excited to show off my man!!
we have had some drama lately. went down to visit my mom in KY last weekend and Etta and Sadie BOTH got bit by a snake. They were all swollen and miserable. One of those times when i wish i could've been there to protect them, but they love to run the woods and i cant keep up.
Speaking of running though (btw the girls are MUCH better)...Nat and I have started a running regime. we are using an eight-week plan to get to the point where we can run 30 minutes straight...i do believe he is in better shape than i am. Gotta start somewhere though right?
well mom and steve bought a new house. we get to go see it this weekend. we are also going car shopping hoping to find a 4 door car at the same monthly payment that we are paying now. need more space with all the girls. we really like camrys, accords, passats and well we can drool over the acura that we cant afford. trying to get our finances in order so we will be financially secure later in life...anyone have any suggestions? email us! or post a comment.
going to hang out with erin and alex on friday night..some friends from accenture. they are fun to hang out with, its exciting to have options.
i would still like to get involved into a volleyball league, but we havent been too proactive about that lately...anyone want to play with us?
well....i think thats it.
love you all
Mrs. P
Nat is wonderful. Half the time i dont know how he puts up with me. I am a girl, through and through, with the random girlish spats. I am independant through and through too, so its hard sometimes, but we manage well. Yet to get into a fight, though we do have little tantrums sometimes (more like him putting up with my tantrums).
I have been working alot lately and trying to get all my projects till septemeber done this month. I think i can actually do it, we will see.two week from today that we go to Jamaica. I am excited. It will be so much fun and a much needed vacation i think. a laid back event in the sun. I am most excited to show off my man!!
we have had some drama lately. went down to visit my mom in KY last weekend and Etta and Sadie BOTH got bit by a snake. They were all swollen and miserable. One of those times when i wish i could've been there to protect them, but they love to run the woods and i cant keep up.
Speaking of running though (btw the girls are MUCH better)...Nat and I have started a running regime. we are using an eight-week plan to get to the point where we can run 30 minutes straight...i do believe he is in better shape than i am. Gotta start somewhere though right?
well mom and steve bought a new house. we get to go see it this weekend. we are also going car shopping hoping to find a 4 door car at the same monthly payment that we are paying now. need more space with all the girls. we really like camrys, accords, passats and well we can drool over the acura that we cant afford. trying to get our finances in order so we will be financially secure later in life...anyone have any suggestions? email us! or post a comment.
going to hang out with erin and alex on friday night..some friends from accenture. they are fun to hang out with, its exciting to have options.
i would still like to get involved into a volleyball league, but we havent been too proactive about that lately...anyone want to play with us?
well....i think thats it.
love you all
Mrs. P
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Destiny
I wanted to share this because i think its beautiful, awesome and proof of the fulfillment of my dreams:
I found this in my Bible, I knew it existed and actually read it to Nat months ago, but i thought i would share it with you. Maybe to boast of my joy or to encourage you in your struggle and disbelief that GOD IS GOOD. I made this list sitting in Longhorn with Christy Payne and her then current boyfriend Ty (this was about 5-6 years ago, i am actually in awe that it was that long ago myself)
CRITERIA TO BE WITH CHRISSI
1. Hippie Mentality (Philosopher)
a. Freebird/Laid Back
b. "unstable" (meaning that he would be open to new experiences and not stuck in a mundaness of a certain kind of life)
2. sarcasm (good)
3. Christian Leader (full of grace and servant hearted)
4. attractive (or i be attracted to)
5. Good sense of humor
6. Faithful and Trustworthy
7.Honest and Open communication
8. Integrity-does what he says he is gonna do
9.Comfortable to open up to
10.makes people feel good, friendly and outgoing
11. undecisive about children (although we are currently decisive)
12. sense of style, but not gay
13. creative and appreciates my art
14. encourages me through my doubts
15. open-minded and accepting of individuality
16. able to re-create self image
17. affectionate, but not a foundation of intimacy
18. respects my inner convictions
19. "wants to know the book that is 'chrissi'"
20. no baggage
21. considerate...call, call, call
22. confidence
23. romantic and has element of surprize
24. simplicity of life and goes with the flow
25.able to walk through conflicts.
Nat meets ALL these requirements and exceeds my expectations in many and more areas. I really do love this man. I really do believe he was created just for me. I dont think i have ever been happier in life and in a place in life where i felt free to be me totally exposed and vulnerable.
Just thought i would share...
Love you all
Mrs. P
I found this in my Bible, I knew it existed and actually read it to Nat months ago, but i thought i would share it with you. Maybe to boast of my joy or to encourage you in your struggle and disbelief that GOD IS GOOD. I made this list sitting in Longhorn with Christy Payne and her then current boyfriend Ty (this was about 5-6 years ago, i am actually in awe that it was that long ago myself)
CRITERIA TO BE WITH CHRISSI
1. Hippie Mentality (Philosopher)
a. Freebird/Laid Back
b. "unstable" (meaning that he would be open to new experiences and not stuck in a mundaness of a certain kind of life)
2. sarcasm (good)
3. Christian Leader (full of grace and servant hearted)
4. attractive (or i be attracted to)
5. Good sense of humor
6. Faithful and Trustworthy
7.Honest and Open communication
8. Integrity-does what he says he is gonna do
9.Comfortable to open up to
10.makes people feel good, friendly and outgoing
11. undecisive about children (although we are currently decisive)
12. sense of style, but not gay
13. creative and appreciates my art
14. encourages me through my doubts
15. open-minded and accepting of individuality
16. able to re-create self image
17. affectionate, but not a foundation of intimacy
18. respects my inner convictions
19. "wants to know the book that is 'chrissi'"
20. no baggage
21. considerate...call, call, call
22. confidence
23. romantic and has element of surprize
24. simplicity of life and goes with the flow
25.able to walk through conflicts.
Nat meets ALL these requirements and exceeds my expectations in many and more areas. I really do love this man. I really do believe he was created just for me. I dont think i have ever been happier in life and in a place in life where i felt free to be me totally exposed and vulnerable.
Just thought i would share...
Love you all
Mrs. P
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Official
today i went to get my Illinois license. Its official, I am Mrs. Pflederer and a legal resident of Illinois...even registered to VOTE!! yeah like thats going to happen. I must say though, that its the best license picture i have ever had (passport pics do me NO justice). So needless to say I had a beautiful day =)
love you all
Mrs. P
love you all
Mrs. P
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Sunday, May 28, 2006
New Phone Number!!
Hey, I am diving into my new life and in the process i figure i needed to change my phone number as well. I sent a text message to most of you, and i will send an email. I would put it here but who knows what kind of calls i would get!
If you didnt get the number and would like it, please leave me a comment or an email and i will send it to you!!
love you all
btw the fence building is going along great! We have dug all the post holes and set all teh posts (except 2). I really think we may get it done this week. OH FUN!!!
later
Chrissi Pflederer
If you didnt get the number and would like it, please leave me a comment or an email and i will send it to you!!
love you all
btw the fence building is going along great! We have dug all the post holes and set all teh posts (except 2). I really think we may get it done this week. OH FUN!!!
later
Chrissi Pflederer
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Hello Mrs. Pflederer
well, i must say, it doesnt feel like i am married somedays, but it does other days. Life is somewhat back to normal. I am finally home and things are settling down. We are trying to figure out how we are going to build our fence. I say 4 foot, he says 6 foot. Who knows what we will end up with. I am trying to get the house in order, that is an adventure---let me tell you!! i figured i would do some spring cleaning and get it out of the way as we are putting new things away and going through all things. I am not supposed to be working right now but i figure i can get some stuff done. I am trying to organize my life again. Married life is great. feels a little different but overall about the same. anyway, i need to get some stuff done.
love you all
c.ALIce Pflederer
love you all
c.ALIce Pflederer
Sunday, May 07, 2006
how to deal
i am not even sure what to write about because so many things are not running through my head. Its like i am forgetting to think, which is nice for the time. It has been the longest week of my life. It definately puts life in perspective a little bit. If you didnt know (although i am sure that everyone reading this knows) my dad passed away on wednesday night, surrounded by people that truly loved him. the funeral was yesterday and it was so nice. I think once again we did our daddy proud. he was always laid back and fun-loving and we couldnt possibly have a stoic funeral. i got a call from the lady that was making my wedding cakes that she was unable to do them, so yall will have to deal with whatever i come up with. I think my wedding day will be the hardest and the most joyest day of my life. I cant imagine looking into Nat's eyes and saying "till death do us part" after going through that reality right now. I worry for my mom, i pray she will be ok. She is strong but also has had dad there to take care of her and be her confidant since she was 19. can you imagine? 40 years of marriage?!?! I hope Nat and I live that long to see that.
I think I am still numb. Although i dont think i am avoiding dealing with it. i have such a peace of heart that i almost feel guilty. its like i have dealt with it and now its just a reality. i do have my mini crying spells, when i think about what he will miss out on (our weddings, grandkids, etc etc), but I also know that he was ready to go. There is an amazing comfort when you know that it is not forever. I love hearing the stories about how he influenced so many peoples lives. Its encouraging because i want to strive even more to be everything i can be in the lives of the people around me.
we have recieved support from so many people. moms family, dads family, nats family, employers and friends. I really am in awe of the respect and admiration people have for him, but also that people would see those traits in me, my sisters, my mom and even Nat in such a way that they support us although they never met him.
i am most sad that he didnt have the oppurtunity to meet the new family i have. i wish they could have at least experienced him for one day and could have seen what a strong and wonderful ( or rather good, good) man he was. But most of all for them to see our love for each other and have first hand accounts of his wit and humor. that saddens me. i really wanted to share him with them, they would have loved him too!
thanks to all of you that hurt with us and send your love towards us and him through prayers and thoughts and mutual sympathies. you truly are part of the family, and i would have it no other way. i love you all dearly!!
so we will see how i handle that day, the day a little girl wants her daddy there, but still wants to celebrate that she has someone that loves her (almost) as much as he did. I am thrilled that dad had the oppurtunity to meet Nat and approve him. It will be a bittersweet day.
love you all
see you soon!
Chrissi (soon to be) Pflederer
I think I am still numb. Although i dont think i am avoiding dealing with it. i have such a peace of heart that i almost feel guilty. its like i have dealt with it and now its just a reality. i do have my mini crying spells, when i think about what he will miss out on (our weddings, grandkids, etc etc), but I also know that he was ready to go. There is an amazing comfort when you know that it is not forever. I love hearing the stories about how he influenced so many peoples lives. Its encouraging because i want to strive even more to be everything i can be in the lives of the people around me.
we have recieved support from so many people. moms family, dads family, nats family, employers and friends. I really am in awe of the respect and admiration people have for him, but also that people would see those traits in me, my sisters, my mom and even Nat in such a way that they support us although they never met him.
i am most sad that he didnt have the oppurtunity to meet the new family i have. i wish they could have at least experienced him for one day and could have seen what a strong and wonderful ( or rather good, good) man he was. But most of all for them to see our love for each other and have first hand accounts of his wit and humor. that saddens me. i really wanted to share him with them, they would have loved him too!
thanks to all of you that hurt with us and send your love towards us and him through prayers and thoughts and mutual sympathies. you truly are part of the family, and i would have it no other way. i love you all dearly!!
so we will see how i handle that day, the day a little girl wants her daddy there, but still wants to celebrate that she has someone that loves her (almost) as much as he did. I am thrilled that dad had the oppurtunity to meet Nat and approve him. It will be a bittersweet day.
love you all
see you soon!
Chrissi (soon to be) Pflederer
Friday, April 14, 2006
Monday, February 27, 2006
and i say..slacker
Nat reminded me that i havent written in over a month. Not that he really needs to know whats going on in my life. He is my life....
had a fantastic valentines day. first time i have ever had a boyfriend (more or less a fiancee). i got flowers and a card.
we decided to sell the house, making a more of an effort. we have an open house and are painting and getting it ready. we had one promising showing the other day,but who knows with those.
i love nat
wedding plans are going well. i am relocating to cincinnati to expedite the process. i am anxious to get there. i would like to leave this weekend, but Nat doesnt want me to yet. I have so much to do...its crazy. Planning a wedding (or rather a reception) is a PAIN!! i just want to get it done, and the sooner the better. i just need to relax i guess.
counseling is going well. i like it, it does bring up things to talk about. i am anxious for the next meeting on thursday.
thats it. i dont have much else i can think about to talk about. i am tired.
later loves
chrissi
had a fantastic valentines day. first time i have ever had a boyfriend (more or less a fiancee). i got flowers and a card.
we decided to sell the house, making a more of an effort. we have an open house and are painting and getting it ready. we had one promising showing the other day,but who knows with those.
i love nat
wedding plans are going well. i am relocating to cincinnati to expedite the process. i am anxious to get there. i would like to leave this weekend, but Nat doesnt want me to yet. I have so much to do...its crazy. Planning a wedding (or rather a reception) is a PAIN!! i just want to get it done, and the sooner the better. i just need to relax i guess.
counseling is going well. i like it, it does bring up things to talk about. i am anxious for the next meeting on thursday.
thats it. i dont have much else i can think about to talk about. i am tired.
later loves
chrissi
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Not Much
Nothing too exciting going on these days. I have been working alot because they keep giving me projects, which isnt necessarily bad, but i dont know when to stop working i think. The puppies have been really good. I have them on a feeding schedule because Etta has to take medicine with food and thats the only way I can force her to eat. It helps tremendously in the potty training efforts. Its actually quite amazing. I can tell when they need to go out and what they are going to do. Dogs are amazing creatures of habit, which is nice.
Nat, of course, is wonderful. I am getting hounded by my sisters to register, i have a had time with that. Nat will have to help me.
anyway, i gotta go back to work, just wanted to let you know that there is nothing interesing going on here. If i remember though, i wll tell you about my computer dramas!!
love you
c.ALIce
Nat, of course, is wonderful. I am getting hounded by my sisters to register, i have a had time with that. Nat will have to help me.
anyway, i gotta go back to work, just wanted to let you know that there is nothing interesing going on here. If i remember though, i wll tell you about my computer dramas!!
love you
c.ALIce
Monday, February 06, 2006
Counseling
So we went to counseling tonight. I was expecting something totally different. We talked about how we met and our current situation. After the session, we set up a meeting for next week. He asked us if we have any more question for him and Nat asked him what his impression of us was and he said that we have a cool vibe about us and a real warmth. oh, that made my day!! its great for an outsider to see that. i was so proud. Nat was telling him how we met and how he "fell madly in love with me" and know he would spend the rest of his life with me. I was just sitting there in awe, wow, he really does love me deeply. I know he loves me, and i love him... yet it is so sweet and touching to hear him proclaim it without reservation to a complete stranger. Just thought i would share out counseling experience.
c.ALIce
c.ALIce
Thursday, February 02, 2006
yeah yeah i know i know
Ok i think i have finally come up with a time slot to write a little bit. Actually i am sorta fed up with work so i am taking a break (although i am on hour 9 of my 8 hour day). Its lonely this week without Nat. Granted i dont really hang out with him 24/7 when he is in town, but i think because he is not here, i want him more. I love him so much.
Etta. She is quite the little trooper. Last friday i was letting the girls in from being outside on the chain. They usually run right into the house, but this time they decided to run around the house. About the 3rd time trying to get them to stop and go inside i heard the screech and painful cry. Of course it was etta because she is always the one getting hurt. Its about 3pm, and i dont have a car so i call Nat like 10 times. then i make my way upstairs (etta in arms with a blood-soaked towel) and type to him on instant messenger. I am sure he was thinking..yeah right, she's kidding, but i assure you, etta and me were in no mood to joke. He called his dad (ohmigod why didnt i think of that?). Ken (aka dad) got there and drove me to the vet. Everyone there was so cool, and of course etta is adorable so its not like you can blame her. she opened up her leg, from the inner hip to the paw, bone exposed. Luckily there was no damage to her lungs or bladder or any broken bones. She went home a couple hours later and then went back Saturday am to sew her up. They only sewed up 50% of the gash...apparently dogs heal really well with growing new tissue and all. She has been back once since and i have to go in tomorrow to change her bandages. shes got one of those cone things to put on her head, but its impossible because sadie likes to attack it...go figure. SHe has been really good though, becoming quite the cuddling mommas girl. she sleeps at my feet while i work, oh so cute. she lays on my toes and grunts alot (but etta has always grunted alot)
Wedding. So i hear that my plans are confusing. yeah well, i have never planned a wedding before. Hopefully theses are the final plans...basically a little change of terminology to limit the confusion. May 20th, 2006. There will be a FAMILY ONLY LUNCHEON. Basically Nat and I feel that our immediate families are very important to us, and if we are to be married, it is ultimately a uniting of our lives and the lives of our families. So its a sacred time for our parents and siblings to bond (cause we know they will love each other). That is what it is. ITs not a ceremony/exchange of vows, its allowing our families to unite. We will get married most likely at the justice of peace or something, nothing fancy or elaborate...we havent figured that out yet. The reception is at cheryls house in monroe, hor'duerves and casual dress. Dont freak out about getting all dressed up (cause as carol reminded me, we are not a group like that). it will be like a birthday party, but better. I think Nat and I have decided to set time aside to allow people to toast us...or have a video-guest book, so i can watch it when i am down and need love. the reception in Illinois is the next weekend and all of you are more than welcome to coem to that as well. Receptions are open, carefree and laid back...what made me think to make it anything less than that??
so that being said. i would still need photographers on sat afternoon for couple/family pictures around cincy, so you are still invited to do that. anyone that is interested in that...cindy, kate, sa, beck....anyone, it could be a fun day of modeling and having fun and goofing off before teh reception (hopefully spending the day around town will take teh awkwardness off of the reception...little bonding (you with them).
i think thats it
i gotta go meet Hope (aka mom) for dinner.
love you all
sorry for all the confusion.
Etta. She is quite the little trooper. Last friday i was letting the girls in from being outside on the chain. They usually run right into the house, but this time they decided to run around the house. About the 3rd time trying to get them to stop and go inside i heard the screech and painful cry. Of course it was etta because she is always the one getting hurt. Its about 3pm, and i dont have a car so i call Nat like 10 times. then i make my way upstairs (etta in arms with a blood-soaked towel) and type to him on instant messenger. I am sure he was thinking..yeah right, she's kidding, but i assure you, etta and me were in no mood to joke. He called his dad (ohmigod why didnt i think of that?). Ken (aka dad) got there and drove me to the vet. Everyone there was so cool, and of course etta is adorable so its not like you can blame her. she opened up her leg, from the inner hip to the paw, bone exposed. Luckily there was no damage to her lungs or bladder or any broken bones. She went home a couple hours later and then went back Saturday am to sew her up. They only sewed up 50% of the gash...apparently dogs heal really well with growing new tissue and all. She has been back once since and i have to go in tomorrow to change her bandages. shes got one of those cone things to put on her head, but its impossible because sadie likes to attack it...go figure. SHe has been really good though, becoming quite the cuddling mommas girl. she sleeps at my feet while i work, oh so cute. she lays on my toes and grunts alot (but etta has always grunted alot)
Wedding. So i hear that my plans are confusing. yeah well, i have never planned a wedding before. Hopefully theses are the final plans...basically a little change of terminology to limit the confusion. May 20th, 2006. There will be a FAMILY ONLY LUNCHEON. Basically Nat and I feel that our immediate families are very important to us, and if we are to be married, it is ultimately a uniting of our lives and the lives of our families. So its a sacred time for our parents and siblings to bond (cause we know they will love each other). That is what it is. ITs not a ceremony/exchange of vows, its allowing our families to unite. We will get married most likely at the justice of peace or something, nothing fancy or elaborate...we havent figured that out yet. The reception is at cheryls house in monroe, hor'duerves and casual dress. Dont freak out about getting all dressed up (cause as carol reminded me, we are not a group like that). it will be like a birthday party, but better. I think Nat and I have decided to set time aside to allow people to toast us...or have a video-guest book, so i can watch it when i am down and need love. the reception in Illinois is the next weekend and all of you are more than welcome to coem to that as well. Receptions are open, carefree and laid back...what made me think to make it anything less than that??
so that being said. i would still need photographers on sat afternoon for couple/family pictures around cincy, so you are still invited to do that. anyone that is interested in that...cindy, kate, sa, beck....anyone, it could be a fun day of modeling and having fun and goofing off before teh reception (hopefully spending the day around town will take teh awkwardness off of the reception...little bonding (you with them).
i think thats it
i gotta go meet Hope (aka mom) for dinner.
love you all
sorry for all the confusion.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
another will be post
nat and i talked about our wedding plans and i think we finally figured out what we are going to do...and basically it all boiled down to terminology."
ill write about that later
and etta, surgery went great...she will have to go back in 2 weeks to get stitches out.
later loves
ill write about that later
and etta, surgery went great...she will have to go back in 2 weeks to get stitches out.
later loves
Friday, January 27, 2006
My baby got hit by a car
ill tell you the story later...but she is ok. SHe has surgery tomorrow to stitch up her leg...going to missouri tomorrow...will write on sunday and monday what happened.
love you
chrissi
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