hopeful

i have had a pretty good week. i am excited about the future. the plan to move to california is such a relief to me. lately, since i graduated, i have felt like i havent accomplished anything. i took a vacation from life i think. with moving, i feel like i have something to look forward to, i have a challenge to overcome and conquer. i dont feel strong, though i know i am. it will definately be a test of my convictions and also a chance to see who i really am when i dont have anyone on my side. i think to, i will make an impact on the lives i will encounter there as i have here. i am ready to move on. i dont think i will stay there long, but long enough i think to experience it. i have some friends that arent very supportive, and i am not sure if that is because they dont trust me to make wise decisions or that they just dont want me to leave. i am not quite sure. but i know they love me unconditionally and that their prayers will be fervent.
i have not been too content with my job lately. i love it most days, but seems like lately i am ready for a new environment. i have been there for nearly 3 and a half years, i have been in the serving profession since i was old enough to serve. gets old after a while i think. i really want to know if i am cut out for anything else!
hopefully this month i will make enough money to pay cheryl back and have money to move with, the amazing thing is that i am not worried about it at all. i just feel like it will all be taken care of.
i ask for you to pray for my family. we are going through some growing pains. moving away from parents and trying to make it as seamless as possible as we all go in different directions. i have a huge bond with my immediate family. pray that moving will be easy and that the selling and buying and wisdom for the direction of cheryl and carol will be clear. especially cheryl, she is still trying to take care of us all without thinking of herself. i pray that God will just open doors wide for her and let her know where she is supposed to go and what she is supposed to do with her talents. i love them all dearly.
i have 4 months or so before i leave, and there are things i want to accomplish before i get there, which is a motivation. deadlines are always good for me. i am lazy and unproductive without them. i want to finally lose that couple extra pounds that haunt me. i want to brush up on my computer skills to hopefully get a design job in california, if not just to have it on my resume. i want to draw very close to Jesus so that i am my strongest ever against my downfalls that will face me. i want to have some money stored up in reserves for emergencies and such. ideally i wouldnt be in debt when i left, but that is practically impossible, but there are some dints i can make.
today i am optimistic about what is in store for me. nothing is holding me back, and home is always here to come back to (sorta...cinci will always be home, there is lots of love here). work doesnt seem so bad when i know that it is only temporary.
i am excited about isreal too, what a great experience!! pray that sarah's money finds its way to cbc so she can come too!! wouldnt want her to miss it. =) love ya sabeth

well, i think thats it for today.
c.ALIce