update

I am so tired of making decisions, or even the thinking about making decisions. I tihnk that this house is going to be a money pit and we are going to spend more on it than we can afford, but Nat is confident we will be ok...i am just a worry-wart. I keep trying to convince myself to not worry, but its inevitable.
Egypt is a go, which is awesome...the tickets are purchased and i am looking forward to harnessing some photography skills before I go so I can take some spectacular photos...I am not sure I will have time with all the house stuff though. Alhtough in this house i can envision my "studio" and even a darkroom (that is if Nat can sacrifice some of the basement for me! Photography is an expensive business, and I need to go to more seminars to catch up with all the technology.
Tomorrow we are going to have a spa day, something we cant really afford (topic of choice today) but something we deserve for all our hard work on the old house, and i suppose preparation for all the hard work on the new house. We are supposed to sign for both of them on the 30th of July. Nat wants to move everything into the new house i suppose in the back bedrooms, and then live with his dad for a week (but i estimate longer). No big problem with that expect for the dogs...its one thing to tear my house up with dog claws and hairiness, but it is something totally different is destroying someone elses house...i just dont think its a smart idea, and if something happens, it will never be lived down. Not to mention he has fairly brand new hardwood floors....i just think we spend that one week in our house (since we really have till the end of August) and not rush everything so much, cause we really have no control over other people.
I have been feeling like shit lately. I have been overly tired and stressed out. I just want to crawl under a rock and die. I am dealing with many issues, other than just the house. that is just a small peice of that thoughts go through my head. I am just in a hard place right now.
I have finally finished retouching the Burchett reunion and next hopefully will be Katie and Olivia. All i need to do now is order them--that should only take a couple hours, to check and recheck to make sure i ordered them all. I also need to burn the DVDs...I also have projects from Ona and trying to get the business together...and passport and oh God, i am just stressing myself out!!
I just thought i would give an update and hopefully get some friendly encouragment!

Love ya
c.ALIce

oh yeah, to get an idea of the house we are buying, pics are here: http://chrissialice.blogspot.com