yes sir-ee 20 days and i am leaving. seems like it is forever away yet on my door step. its going to be hard not to have the constant encouragement around all the time and hanging out with those people that really encourage my faith. i really have no idea how long i will be there. the door is open, but the closer i get the more timid i get and the more i just want to stay here. but i have to go. not because i said i would, even though that is definately an issue, but because i feel like that is where i am supposed to be for a while. maybe, if anything, it will help me get outta this rut.
anyway, i need to get back to work. love you all!!
c.ALIce
Monday, April 25, 2005
Friday, April 22, 2005
Lost Count
I know I have less than thirty days, but havent counted today. the puppy is adorable and i might stay just because of her...nah, better not. I'll have one of my own one day.
Today was the day of Kadie's Art Show to support her trip to Uganda. She called earlier today and reminded me. I wish i could've been there, but i had to work. Kadie, being the diamond that she is, called me afterwards to let me know how it went. I gave her a stack of pictures to sell to help her fundraiser, and she said that lots of people really liked them and that people actually bought them. I am definately the harshest critic on my stuff, so i think that no one would want to spend money on it. I guess i am wrong. She is such an incredible motivator. I wish I had the heart for it like she does. She offered to sell my art for me, but I am not sure about that. She says she still needs to pray about it. She just hates to see artists not doing anything with their art. that would be me. I sold a couple pieces a month or so ago. First time ever selling my art....i usually give it away (because i dont think its worth a price). I should really get into it though. one could make money at it, and i could use money. so if anyone is interested in original art to put on their walls...you know where i am...but now i think you have to pay for it.
Anyway, thats exciting for me.
Levi offered me a job with his company. that i am a little more timid about. It is more about designing web sites...which i have been very lax on lately. i should really get into it though. I enjoy doing it..just one of those things that is frustrating at the start because i want to know everything right from the get go. but i guess in these cases..practice makes perfect. i will get into when i get to california and have time off (while looking for a job).
anyway---tomorrow (or rather today) we are moving the parents. exciting...i love lots of open space and after all their crap is gone there will be LOTS of space. i just really dont like clutter...the less you have the better...and what you have should mean something, i guess. but i dont like lugging crap around either. so maybe after i settle down and get a permanent residence i can get lots of crap and a dog!!! oh for those days.
i have been talking to Brady online...one of my greatest online buddies...and he just renews a faith in me that men of integrity and a passion for God really DO exist. He cracks me up. Has a great personality and a contagious fire about him. Plus, he has this adorable michigan accent...he is just an overall great guy. Sucks he lives in Michigan, but all my friends live far away so i guess i should be used to it. just sucks sometimes when you would rather hang out with them. allwell.
that doesnt mean i dont love the people here as well. cause i do, because i get to see them.
well i guess that is enough for today...look below at the adorableness of puppy!!!
c.ALIce
“Jesus, lover of my soul, stir up in us a spirit of rebellion against evil. Give us a passion to fight for you, to fight for love and purity. Be a constant reminder in our hearts and minds that this life is about adventure. Let our passion be to YOU and YOUR will. Give us a surge in our souls to conquer over the things we struggle with, the things we hold on to. Be clear and concise. You are the mightiest of warriors, take each of us aside in a quiet place and motivate us, give us the pep talk we so desperately need. Your love is fantastic, adventurous and powerful. Grant us an experience with it, give us a taste. All glory to YOU because you are the author and finisher. All to you oh Lord…your lil princess.”
Today was the day of Kadie's Art Show to support her trip to Uganda. She called earlier today and reminded me. I wish i could've been there, but i had to work. Kadie, being the diamond that she is, called me afterwards to let me know how it went. I gave her a stack of pictures to sell to help her fundraiser, and she said that lots of people really liked them and that people actually bought them. I am definately the harshest critic on my stuff, so i think that no one would want to spend money on it. I guess i am wrong. She is such an incredible motivator. I wish I had the heart for it like she does. She offered to sell my art for me, but I am not sure about that. She says she still needs to pray about it. She just hates to see artists not doing anything with their art. that would be me. I sold a couple pieces a month or so ago. First time ever selling my art....i usually give it away (because i dont think its worth a price). I should really get into it though. one could make money at it, and i could use money. so if anyone is interested in original art to put on their walls...you know where i am...but now i think you have to pay for it.
Anyway, thats exciting for me.
Levi offered me a job with his company. that i am a little more timid about. It is more about designing web sites...which i have been very lax on lately. i should really get into it though. I enjoy doing it..just one of those things that is frustrating at the start because i want to know everything right from the get go. but i guess in these cases..practice makes perfect. i will get into when i get to california and have time off (while looking for a job).
anyway---tomorrow (or rather today) we are moving the parents. exciting...i love lots of open space and after all their crap is gone there will be LOTS of space. i just really dont like clutter...the less you have the better...and what you have should mean something, i guess. but i dont like lugging crap around either. so maybe after i settle down and get a permanent residence i can get lots of crap and a dog!!! oh for those days.
i have been talking to Brady online...one of my greatest online buddies...and he just renews a faith in me that men of integrity and a passion for God really DO exist. He cracks me up. Has a great personality and a contagious fire about him. Plus, he has this adorable michigan accent...he is just an overall great guy. Sucks he lives in Michigan, but all my friends live far away so i guess i should be used to it. just sucks sometimes when you would rather hang out with them. allwell.
that doesnt mean i dont love the people here as well. cause i do, because i get to see them.
well i guess that is enough for today...look below at the adorableness of puppy!!!
c.ALIce
“Jesus, lover of my soul, stir up in us a spirit of rebellion against evil. Give us a passion to fight for you, to fight for love and purity. Be a constant reminder in our hearts and minds that this life is about adventure. Let our passion be to YOU and YOUR will. Give us a surge in our souls to conquer over the things we struggle with, the things we hold on to. Be clear and concise. You are the mightiest of warriors, take each of us aside in a quiet place and motivate us, give us the pep talk we so desperately need. Your love is fantastic, adventurous and powerful. Grant us an experience with it, give us a taste. All glory to YOU because you are the author and finisher. All to you oh Lord…your lil princess.”
Judah
I'd like you to meet Judah Yaffeh. isnt she beautiful!!! we got her yesterday! she is actually my sister's dog because I am not settled enough to get one of my own. Mine's name will be Israel, and nickname him Izzi...cause i am cool, i even got cool spelling.
Judah is a weimaraner. absolutely adorable, a bit of a whiner today, but we did strip her away from her family yesterday...so i guess i can forgive that. she is going to be about 60-80 pounds. but i love big dogs.
just thought i would share her with you.
chrissi
Judah is a weimaraner. absolutely adorable, a bit of a whiner today, but we did strip her away from her family yesterday...so i guess i can forgive that. she is going to be about 60-80 pounds. but i love big dogs.
just thought i would share her with you.
chrissi
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Sunday, April 17, 2005
30 DAYS!!!
A month from today I will be getting in a car and driving cross country to my Los Angeles destination. I am excited....and SO stressed, mostly about money. Just seems like God is testing my finances, and this is SO not the time to do that! just have to remember to breathe. i would say that 99.9% of all my stress in life revolves around money. i just wish that someone would just come and release me from the torment. i would love to work just to give to others instead of trying to pay my bills. its frustrating. there are so many people in this world that have money, all i need is about 40,000 and i will be home free, that would pay off school and car...the majority of my debt, and then i could travel and volunteer for red cross or work to help others get outta debt and life out their dreams. pipedreams i guess...unless you are millionaire reading this!!! fat chance huh?
anyway. i am nervous about going, mainly for financial reasons but i am also torn between getting a career job (like salary) or continuing being freelance whatever and live a little. will i find a job that will allow me to pay my bills?? UGH, if the whole world wasnt about money!!?!?!?!?
sorry, just venting frustrations about it all.
i do miss levi. i have been thinking about him alot lately, which just makes it harder to get on with my life. thought i was so over that, thought i could be open and be able to have a relationship with another person. I am finding that difficult, he keeps telling me that i hold back too much. i admit i do. just dont need the point. not wanting to work hard at much of anything in regards to boy-girl relationships. its like if i keep moving and dont plan to stay in one place very long, then i can avoid them all together. i am so non-commital. all well....one day my prince will come and he will have to fight all the demons hanging around and climb all the walls i set up and he will rescue me.
ok i think i am done for now...
send me lotsa money so i can get outta debt
chrissi
anyway. i am nervous about going, mainly for financial reasons but i am also torn between getting a career job (like salary) or continuing being freelance whatever and live a little. will i find a job that will allow me to pay my bills?? UGH, if the whole world wasnt about money!!?!?!?!?
sorry, just venting frustrations about it all.
i do miss levi. i have been thinking about him alot lately, which just makes it harder to get on with my life. thought i was so over that, thought i could be open and be able to have a relationship with another person. I am finding that difficult, he keeps telling me that i hold back too much. i admit i do. just dont need the point. not wanting to work hard at much of anything in regards to boy-girl relationships. its like if i keep moving and dont plan to stay in one place very long, then i can avoid them all together. i am so non-commital. all well....one day my prince will come and he will have to fight all the demons hanging around and climb all the walls i set up and he will rescue me.
ok i think i am done for now...
send me lotsa money so i can get outta debt
chrissi
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
HUMOR ME
I joined UPROMISE and it allows you to have anyone be added to help you pay off your college loans. I figure if i get 100 people to sign up under me that i will have my loans paid off in no time. it is really not that much a month from one person...like i made 4.00...but times that by 100...times 12 months...see where i am going with this.
GO HERE
https://lty.s.upromise.com/displayServlet?pl=d8zVjXnI7ls$&ax=ff_inviteO
It really doesnt take that long and I can never see your information.
Humor me and sign up on my behalf....i just want to see if it really works.
thanks
c a bond
GO HERE
https://lty.s.upromise.com/displayServlet?pl=d8zVjXnI7ls$&ax=ff_inviteO
It really doesnt take that long and I can never see your information.
Humor me and sign up on my behalf....i just want to see if it really works.
thanks
c a bond
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