bog...a blog

Its pretty awesome that I can sit on the bus and type up a blog and I am sure you all are so happy about that. I think I love my new compact vaio. I don’t have much to report….but I guess I do. I have made a new friend. He is awesome. His name is Vaughn and he makes me laugh all the time. He is also in my nursing course and we ended up getting a lot of classes and tutorials together. Although no one can replace Nina, he is a suitable replacement. Its funny, we were talking the other day and he said he thought I was rude the first time I met him. I guess that means I thought we were fast friends =) Cause most people that think I am a bitch at first learn to love me!! I am happy to have found him…although he is not a “study buddy” really. I cant seem to get anything productive accomplished, but that’s cause I am too busy laughing. I feel very safe to be myself around him, and that is good for me.
I have been doing some research in regards to what I need to have done before I come back to states in regards to nursing. I know that I am required to take NCLEX but there are certain “rules” or curriculum that needs to be accomplished in order to qualify with foreign education to be able to take it. I am trying to be proactive so that when we move back I can seamlessly take test and get job. It’s a little discouraging because my program is not up to par with US programs. So because of that, and various other reasons, Nat and I have (tentatively, depending on opportunity) decided to stay in Australia for four years minimum. That gives us time to be able to take advantage of all it has to offer. Nat doesn’t get vacation time until May and I will be in school until next July so it makes it hard to really do much. We are trying to move closer to city so we will have more oppurtunites to “play” Everything is still up in the air but overall it’s a decision that helps me to cope with the uneasiness that comes with being “dislocated” – It relieves some stress of graduating and then moving and starting all over again…gives me a little time to have a solid nursing work experience before I head back to states. It also allows Nat to really learn at his job and invest in projects. I don’t see myself here in 20 years, but one day at a time…ya never know. Also gives me time to get into graduate nursing program and make up any hours I may need in order to be able to take NCLEX (ie maternity and peds are not part of my program unless I decide to add midwifery and another year of study).
Good news!! I found a starbucks that is semi-easy to access. There are only 2-3 in Brisbane and none are remotely close to me. But I found one in a hospital on my way to school (when I get the priviledge of driving) and they make the BEST white chocolate mochas!! There was one downtown I tried but there WCMs were gross. It’s a delight I give myself once or twice a month. It’s the little things people!!
So the countdown has begin until I come back to the states. I will graduate in July 2011 and Carol is getting married in September so I figure why get a job for 6 weeks then have to leave, so instead I am planning to come back in July and stay until after Carols wedding. Nat of course cant stay that long, but I think he is planning on coming for a couple weeks…but its too far in advance to make arrangements cause it will depend on his job situation – never know..we may be moving back instead of visiting!! Everything will work itself out. Its like 450 days away…but I love countdowns!!
I have girls night with my favourite girl Felicity next Friday so there is something to look forward to. I think I am going to try out a church this weekend or next --- just so hard to wake up so early on Sundays!! It appears to be young and hip and very much like Vineyard….so we shall see.
Hmm I really cant think of anything else. Life is pretty ordinary. Looking into finding a job..experience plus money = good.

Sisters

The best in the WHOLE WORLD

Placements

Here are my placements for second semester
April 19-30 in Vascular Ward at Royal Brisbane (venous and arterial diseases, surgical)
May 4-14 in Mental Health Ward at Logan Hospital (with Nina and Mallory =))

Its the ward I wanted...closest I could find to Cardiovascular...

Unprepared

I don't have confidence that my nursing program is providing me the necessary skills to become a competent nurse. That is frustrating. I looked over some nclex questions and can honestly say I would fail miserably. I am considered third year and this time next year am expected to be able to be a competent nurse. At this stage I am extremely doubtful ill be there. Part of me wishes I stayed in the states to complete this course. But I really didn't have a choice. Very disheartening. So feeling unprepared feeds into my confidence and my wanting to complete this course. But what else do I have? Is this what I really want? Will I ever feel prepared? Are my doubts and apprehensions stemming from my lack of confidence or telling me this isn't what I am designed to do. Where are all my answers. It's not like a normal job...peoples lives are in my hands. Can I handle that stress and pressure? So I am at a crossroad and feeling helpless and hopeless in regards to my future.


chrissi alice

Unsure

I don't like living being unsure of anythng.


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