you have not heard from me in a while because i have been super busy this weekend at trina and patricks wedding. it was so much fun!! i fortunately had met most everyone on thursday night at the bachelor party, then the rehearsal dinner was friday night, the wedding on saturday and the brunch on sunday. i was invited to the wedding, which was an honor anyway, i had met trina and patrick over christmas. i offered my photographic services to them (in lieu of being at a wedding and not really knowing anyone) and they accepted. i was to be the reception candid photographer. friday was fun, we got there around 4 at this beautiful house in simi valley (45 minute drive from LA) and hung out, then practiced the wedding and hung out more. saturday was the big day...the wedding. Trina was absolutely stunning...ill post a pic later, after i go through them. she looks like marilyn monroe or grace kelly, timeless and classic. the wedding was short and sweet and funny, definately not formal, but very casual and laid back. then the reception...lots of fun dancing and then broken up because we were in someones back yard.
now the photography....candid? reception? no...the "real" photographer didnt know to show up at 3 for family pics...so i took charge. do you know how hard it is to get 10 divas and a bride to hold still in one place at the same time? but good...sandy and i took some pictures. we organized them and shot...no time!! we didnt get to start with pics till almost 4...wedding was at 5....i felt so rushed!! but it was good...lots of good pics. the other photographer did show up, and he was really cool...super nice guy!! i was ordained the reception photographer from the get-go so i was there...supposed to be taking the bulk of the most important pics (i didnt realize i would be the only one) and then right before the first dance, my battery ran out!!! OH NO!!! first dance, father/daughter dance, cake cutting, flower toss, garder toss...none would be documented. dont worry, i handled it...got sandy to cover me for about 20 minutes while my battery recharged, and didnt miss anything but the father/daughter dance, but she got it on film.
i have almost 1000 pics from friday, and saturday...i didnt want to screw any up so i took a bunch just to make sure. I AM SO COOL!!!
after the wedding was the after wedding party at the hotel, lets just say i have never been to a party quite like it. dont worry, i didnt drink or do drugs or have random sex with strangers...but i did have fun. who needs drugs? or alcohol?
i met a lot of really cool people...jason (NY) jen (LA) zac!!! (DC) belton family (IN) becky and duke (IN) Kelly (LA) Vanessa (LA, originally from IL) Stacey!!! (IL) there are more, but those are the ones with the blog mention...most everyone i hung out with were people from the midwest. some live in LA, but most left on sunday or monday to go back home. there is a distinct difference from people that live in LA and those that dont, but everyone was very cool and friendly, warm and welcoming. it was definately a great time to come and meet everyone.
so far i am well liked...not that i had too much to worry about...i am likable.
i kind of have a job. i met Kristin, tiffs friend/boss, and 20 minutes from meeting me she looks at me and says "youre hired." apparently tiff talked me up, and kristin agreed...i didnt do anything to try to impress her except be myself...and i guess that was enough. there is really no work right now, but i am working on a commercial on thursday (my first PA job)...not a lot of money, but something at least. tomorrow i am going to see if i can find a serving job, and hopefully find a job for Joe.
there has been so much going on this weekend, i am sure i have not touched on everything, but that is the jist anyway. i am sure there will be more to come.
love you all and miss ya a little...
c.ALIce
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Live to Love
its weird being in a different city that you have never been in before and calling it home. i guess it would be easier to come home and just brush this off as vacation. but what would i have learned in that process. i like the city, there are some really cool spots that remind me of a mix between short vine and mt adams and hyde park...very urban outfitter-ish. that i like. its very carefree and peaceful...despite the fact it is in a city. i am sorta stressed out about the whole job situation...i feel very out of control. the last time i went to apply for a job was like 4 years ago...twice maybe in the last 10 years. and nothing that was super important. i am thinking about getting a job at urban outfitters on melrose...cool place to hang out i think...just a bit stressful....tell me again why i came here? remind me why i decided to turn my life upside down to come out of my comfort zone? was i so unhappy there? i feel lost at times because i know i am talented, yet unexpereinced, i know i am a great friend, yet shy away from people. one day i think i will get it...i dont think i will be famous, but i do want to be successful, just not sure yet in what. yesterday i was confident in being here, today i am getting more stressed and the guy (joe) is driving me crazy by just breathing. way too much time with one person (its not like israel with sisters and sa....hes a boy with a really abnoxious smoking habit and he says an expression i cant spell it..but sounds like a meow from a mafioso..ugh, if he says it ONE more time, i could smack him (i have that aggression boiling up in my stomach that i have a feeling is going to explode soon). i havent come to that point where i am missing people, but ya'll know me...may take me a little bit...only been a little over a week (though it has felt like months). breathe chrissi!! everything so far has worked out in my favor, and i think with all the prayers from the midwest and beyond, that God will take care of me. It was way too perfect of a trip and preparation of a trip to think in any way that i am not supposed to be here, just finding my niche. i should just take this time to re-evaluate. before life gets hectic with 5 jobs and no free time...to sit and breathe in the vacation. life is not about making money and paying bills...life is about living. i have to keep reminding myself that i work to live, not live to work...that people are incredible creatures worth time and consideration and that i dont want to be a selfish person in which my life revolves around how much money i have in my bank account. please continue to remind me of that...ill love you for it.
i need to go grocery shopping, too expensive to eat out all the time....cant handle it.
tried to open a checking account today, they said i couldnt until i got a CA license...there are other banks though, so no sweat.
tell me please what to do with my life...why do some people have it so easy? they just know or fall into something...i am the jack of all trades but the master of none, which should make me more marketable right? but they dont know me...they dont know my talents and abilities, and somehow i have to expose myself to them and convince them i am a good candidate, though sometimes i am not sure myself...Goal in life in LA...learn to have confidence in myself...easier said than done i am afraid.
love you all dearly
c.ALIce
i need to go grocery shopping, too expensive to eat out all the time....cant handle it.
tried to open a checking account today, they said i couldnt until i got a CA license...there are other banks though, so no sweat.
tell me please what to do with my life...why do some people have it so easy? they just know or fall into something...i am the jack of all trades but the master of none, which should make me more marketable right? but they dont know me...they dont know my talents and abilities, and somehow i have to expose myself to them and convince them i am a good candidate, though sometimes i am not sure myself...Goal in life in LA...learn to have confidence in myself...easier said than done i am afraid.
love you all dearly
c.ALIce
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Los Angeles....call me home
Well I arrived in Los Angeles last night. Tiffany hosts kareoke on monday nights so we went there....it was actually pretty fun. i met a couple people, jeff, mike, cameron and justin....yeah i know..all guys, but i am not sure that tiffany has girlfriends. just kidding, i know she does...just happened that way.
Today we went to the mall to find Tiffany a black dress for Trinas wedding this weekend and to find Joe a job, because he has no money. all day in a mall trying to find a black dress...somewhat exhausting but fun. I dont know what people were talking about before i left about LA....they must have not been where i have been. the people are at times more friendly than in Cincinnati. they look at you and smile. the apartment is near Los Feliz, which is not far from Hollywood. We are very close to Burbank and Melrose. Its a pretty good neighborhood, its no Beverly Hills, but its not Compton either. The apartment is much bigger than i imagined. The freeways are not as crowded as i thought either...just like Cincinnati, depends on what time of day you decide to drive them. But so far my experiences have been great. i dont feel like i dont belong here. i actually feel quite at home. i have a list of things that i plan to accomplish while i am here, which is a start to getting to where i want to be. i dont know how long i will stay...at this point it still feels like some sort of surreal dream, but not a vacation, maybe a little one. i have put in some resumes and tiff has been trying to pull some strings for me. i have to be really careful with how much money i spend because i know it can run out fast...tomorrow we must go grocery shopping because i can not afford to eat out all the time....its expensive. so far gas is 2.45 a gallon for the unleaded....crazy..but its more expensive because they purify it so much to make it better for the environment...supposively. food is expensive, but its not like eating at mcdonalds with the dollar menu...we were at the mall and everything there is overpriced. tomorrow tiff and i are giong to melrose to go shopping at some really trendy stores (like shopping on short vine and mt adams....or cool stores like urban outfitters (though cheaper)). i decided i want to be a hippy....then i decided that i did not want to limit myself to one identity, when i am cute enough to pull so much more off. we went to a bunch of stores today that sell those bohemian style skirts, like the ones i got in israel, for WAY more than i spent in israel. gyspy skirts i guess you could call them too. they are fun...
tomorrow we are going to melrose, crunch and washington mutual...shop, workout and get a bank account. well thats the plan. thursday there are no real plans and friday i am the photographer (candid digital) for trina and patricks wedding and also on saturday. i am even in the program!!! i didnt realize that until today...kind of cool. i think i will try to get some business cards printed out...ya know...networking!!! its all about who you know here...it really is!!
ill come right back....gotta take the dogs for walk...
c.ALIce
Today we went to the mall to find Tiffany a black dress for Trinas wedding this weekend and to find Joe a job, because he has no money. all day in a mall trying to find a black dress...somewhat exhausting but fun. I dont know what people were talking about before i left about LA....they must have not been where i have been. the people are at times more friendly than in Cincinnati. they look at you and smile. the apartment is near Los Feliz, which is not far from Hollywood. We are very close to Burbank and Melrose. Its a pretty good neighborhood, its no Beverly Hills, but its not Compton either. The apartment is much bigger than i imagined. The freeways are not as crowded as i thought either...just like Cincinnati, depends on what time of day you decide to drive them. But so far my experiences have been great. i dont feel like i dont belong here. i actually feel quite at home. i have a list of things that i plan to accomplish while i am here, which is a start to getting to where i want to be. i dont know how long i will stay...at this point it still feels like some sort of surreal dream, but not a vacation, maybe a little one. i have put in some resumes and tiff has been trying to pull some strings for me. i have to be really careful with how much money i spend because i know it can run out fast...tomorrow we must go grocery shopping because i can not afford to eat out all the time....its expensive. so far gas is 2.45 a gallon for the unleaded....crazy..but its more expensive because they purify it so much to make it better for the environment...supposively. food is expensive, but its not like eating at mcdonalds with the dollar menu...we were at the mall and everything there is overpriced. tomorrow tiff and i are giong to melrose to go shopping at some really trendy stores (like shopping on short vine and mt adams....or cool stores like urban outfitters (though cheaper)). i decided i want to be a hippy....then i decided that i did not want to limit myself to one identity, when i am cute enough to pull so much more off. we went to a bunch of stores today that sell those bohemian style skirts, like the ones i got in israel, for WAY more than i spent in israel. gyspy skirts i guess you could call them too. they are fun...
tomorrow we are going to melrose, crunch and washington mutual...shop, workout and get a bank account. well thats the plan. thursday there are no real plans and friday i am the photographer (candid digital) for trina and patricks wedding and also on saturday. i am even in the program!!! i didnt realize that until today...kind of cool. i think i will try to get some business cards printed out...ya know...networking!!! its all about who you know here...it really is!!
ill come right back....gotta take the dogs for walk...
c.ALIce
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Tempe, Arizona and beyond
we stayed in houston until friday morning.early afternoon. i stayed with christian on thursday night. i know christian from russia (when i went on a mission trip in 2000). that was great, i hung out with her and her husband and mike and lang (i knew them from other visits). we sat around and told stories and laughed alot...which is inevitable with christian and me. i picked up joe from his friends house on friday morning and we started our trek to phoenix arizona. about 3 am, my handy travel partner couldnt drive anymore..poor tired lil guy...and we stopped in new mexico to figure out if i was going to drive MORE, or if we were going to sleep in the car or get a hotel. i have this tradition to buy a lottery ticket in every state i travel through and new mexico was not an exception...we WON 15 dollars, which pretty much made the decision to stay in hotel (cause we couldnt cash it in till at least after 7am..and it was only 3am!) we got into tempe arizona on saturday afternoon around 1:30pm. brandon is in tempe...i used to work with him at encore cafe. tempe is a really cool city. it is a college town and very hippy-ish, which i love. people were really cool and laid back. ARIZONA IS HOT. it was like 112* thats crazy hot!!! we went to some bars (some cool, some not)....dont worry, i didnt tie one on..i am not a big drinker.
the best part about the trip up to this point was that people were so great. everyone i met and stayed with was super hospitable. i felt like i knew them for long time, even though i had only just met most of them (i mean other than my friends).
write more later
c.ALIce
the best part about the trip up to this point was that people were so great. everyone i met and stayed with was super hospitable. i felt like i knew them for long time, even though i had only just met most of them (i mean other than my friends).
write more later
c.ALIce
Thursday, May 19, 2005
GRACELAND
unfortunately it was dark...but graceland nonetheless. with heartbreak hotel...lonely street, all located on elvis presley boulevard....people signed the wall the surrounded his house...lotsa love for the KING!!
roadtrp033
this is the kemah boardwalk where we had lunch at joes crab shack....its kinda cool...like a mini permanant festival, beautiful day!
houston
today i spent the whole day in houston. i am trying to keep this updated as possible for those that want to be updated. i went to the pool and i went to the kemah boardwalk to see lots of sail boats. tomorrow i am excited because i get to spend time with christian, my friend from russia. i finally got a hold of her so that is great because my travel buddy is planning on going to some bars and i would much rather hang out with her than to be on drunk duty.
we are leaving here on friday afternoon and driving to phoenix. i am not sure that we will drive straight through like we did from morehead to houston...cause 18 hours straight is BRUTAL!! i think we might have to break down and get a hotel room...hopefully with 2 beds.
i feel like i am in some sorta weird dream. i am travelling with a guy i barely know and staying with people i dont know that well, but i am in control of the trip and make the final decisions in regards to the plans...and going to cool places but seems like a big daze. i think maybe once i get to los Angeles i will wake up and it wont seem like a really twisted vacation.
started the "finding gods will for your life" book and i dont really remember what i read but i remember a cool aspect of it that i will go into later, once i actually think it through for myself.
love you all....time for bed...actually i am going to get my camera and try to get some pictures on here for you to see.
love you!!!
c.ALIce
we are leaving here on friday afternoon and driving to phoenix. i am not sure that we will drive straight through like we did from morehead to houston...cause 18 hours straight is BRUTAL!! i think we might have to break down and get a hotel room...hopefully with 2 beds.
i feel like i am in some sorta weird dream. i am travelling with a guy i barely know and staying with people i dont know that well, but i am in control of the trip and make the final decisions in regards to the plans...and going to cool places but seems like a big daze. i think maybe once i get to los Angeles i will wake up and it wont seem like a really twisted vacation.
started the "finding gods will for your life" book and i dont really remember what i read but i remember a cool aspect of it that i will go into later, once i actually think it through for myself.
love you all....time for bed...actually i am going to get my camera and try to get some pictures on here for you to see.
love you!!!
c.ALIce
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
half way there
it has been an interesting trip, but fun nonetheless. we started out by making our way down to lexington, yes i know...such a far drive. i got to spend some time with stephanie which is always a pleasure. she is beautiful and great and i am extremely blessed to have her in my life. my travel partner is a chimney smoker...its bad when the smoker in the car is getting a headache from the other smoker. i have been driving most of the time because frankly he makes me nervous, just playing, though at first i was because he had never driven an SUV. On Tuesday morning we went to visit my parents. I figured it was the right thing to do since i was only an hour away anyway. I think they really appreciated it. Then we were off again. we drove all night to get to Houston this morning at 8am (9am Ohio time...yeah forgot about those time zones)...but so far the best part of the trip was going to GRACELAND...the palace of the king of rock and roll!! unfortunately we got there at like 11PM so it was closed, but we got some pics, though not good ones. it was the thrill. maybe could've been planned better to get there earlier, but it was sorta a last minute idea for the sake of a billboard...elvis lives!
joe sleeps alot. maybe i am just not a sleeper...he slept in the car for like 4 hours, now he is still sleeping. i am hungry, i wish he would wake up, but he needs his sleep i guess, growing boy and all. he is pretty funny. we dont talk much which is actually nice because i am sick of talking. i have been thinking alot...which can be good and bad. the trip seems more like a weird vacation than a permanent move. it will be nice to go there, spend some time, live a little in LA culture, but right now, i dont think i will stay long...long as in years, but definately 8 months to a year. but you never know, i might love it there and stay a really long time. but right now, just feels like a twisted vacation.
so now we are in houston, gonna piddle around town for a bit today then i think tonight i might get my first lesson in poker with the boys. tomorrow we are staying here too. i still havent been able to get in touch with christian so i am currently staying with joe's friend roger. hopefully i can stay with her tomorrow (cause i have a feeling joe will be way hungover on friday). Then we are off to Phoenix. Not so sure about the Grand Canyon, but we will see.
Plans changed a lot since the trip was last finalized...no dana, no little rock, added graceland...but it is better that way, no deadlines or obligations.
we will most likely get into LA on Wednesday or Thursday, and bright and early monday morning i am either going job hunting or going to the beach!!!
well its like 90 degrees in houston, so i might go to the pool while i wait for joe to wake up.
love everyone
c.ALIce
joe sleeps alot. maybe i am just not a sleeper...he slept in the car for like 4 hours, now he is still sleeping. i am hungry, i wish he would wake up, but he needs his sleep i guess, growing boy and all. he is pretty funny. we dont talk much which is actually nice because i am sick of talking. i have been thinking alot...which can be good and bad. the trip seems more like a weird vacation than a permanent move. it will be nice to go there, spend some time, live a little in LA culture, but right now, i dont think i will stay long...long as in years, but definately 8 months to a year. but you never know, i might love it there and stay a really long time. but right now, just feels like a twisted vacation.
so now we are in houston, gonna piddle around town for a bit today then i think tonight i might get my first lesson in poker with the boys. tomorrow we are staying here too. i still havent been able to get in touch with christian so i am currently staying with joe's friend roger. hopefully i can stay with her tomorrow (cause i have a feeling joe will be way hungover on friday). Then we are off to Phoenix. Not so sure about the Grand Canyon, but we will see.
Plans changed a lot since the trip was last finalized...no dana, no little rock, added graceland...but it is better that way, no deadlines or obligations.
we will most likely get into LA on Wednesday or Thursday, and bright and early monday morning i am either going job hunting or going to the beach!!!
well its like 90 degrees in houston, so i might go to the pool while i wait for joe to wake up.
love everyone
c.ALIce
Monday, May 09, 2005
this time next week
i know that i have fretted frequently about my trip. well here goes again. i am broke!! seems like just when i get ahead then some weird bill comes up and drags me back down. i am needless to say a little stressed out. if only money didnt rule the world! i am tired of fretting about it and just go and get it over with. i will be on the road this time next week. it should be interesting to say the least. i know that it will all come together in the end, and if i am supposed to go then everything will work out, but i also dont think that it is going to keep me from going by any means. i dunno...there is just so much to do before i go and i am so tired of working and painting and cleaning and packing. but it has to be done i guess.
i am excited though. scared still, but that will probably not change until i get into some type of routine there. tiffany has been very encouraging through it all and giving me lots of pep talks and affirming me that everything will be ok. i guess i just like to be stressed out.
c.ALIce
i am excited though. scared still, but that will probably not change until i get into some type of routine there. tiffany has been very encouraging through it all and giving me lots of pep talks and affirming me that everything will be ok. i guess i just like to be stressed out.
c.ALIce
Sunday, May 01, 2005
2 weeks
i feel like i am in the middle of a divorce, though honestly i have no idea what that really feels like. i am torn into so many directions and i feel so clueless. there is this history in our family where whenever someone decides that they want to go away, dad gets sick. cheryl goes to college, dad has to have 5-bypass heart surgery. carol goes to seminary, dad has a massive heart attack. now, i am planning on leaving for california and he goes into the hospital tomorrow for angiogram, which determines whether or not he gets slints, another bypass, a pacemaker or if he will just wait it out. figures huh? certain things are going well, and now they are getting weird because he is pulling away because he realizes that i am leaving, or so i figure. my sisters are becoming very dependant...or rather, they want me to spend all my free time with them. i have been able to hang out with friends lately and i realize how much i will miss their smiles and impact/influence they have in my life. grass isnt always greener on the other side, this i know, but the experience of jumping the fence is what makes home feel like home..ya know?
i have had a very lonely day for some reason. maybe its because i am tired and pmsing...just kind of moaped about the house with no real agenda and got absolutely nothing accomplished. i dont want to settle, but i am so comfortable here. i am glad that people finally started to become supportive of the decision, though i know it will be hard and hearts will break, and feel the hurt/emptiness.
i see relationships in my life that arent worth the effort. i see the people that dont care or respect me as i deserve. and i also see those people that love me unconditionally and just want the best for me. the ones that i rely on for strength (even though they would never know about it). the ones that say they will miss me, some will, some wont, frankly because i wont be gone from them because i am always there in spirit.
kind of feels like i am about to die or something. its not like i am never coming home. ill be back, though i am not sure when. i will miss blue ice cream. gap outlet. metropolis. margaritas. hugs. kisses. talks. star gazing and long walks. you really realize what you will miss, when you will no longer have it. its like now i have taken so much for granted. there is so much more that i wish i could've done. more time to spend. more focus on people instead of things. to love more deeply and not to hide so much. to respect more people and gain more respect. life is not over, i still have more lessons to learn, and this will only make me grow as a person. just growing pains all around i guess.
love you all!!
c.ALIce
i have had a very lonely day for some reason. maybe its because i am tired and pmsing...just kind of moaped about the house with no real agenda and got absolutely nothing accomplished. i dont want to settle, but i am so comfortable here. i am glad that people finally started to become supportive of the decision, though i know it will be hard and hearts will break, and feel the hurt/emptiness.
i see relationships in my life that arent worth the effort. i see the people that dont care or respect me as i deserve. and i also see those people that love me unconditionally and just want the best for me. the ones that i rely on for strength (even though they would never know about it). the ones that say they will miss me, some will, some wont, frankly because i wont be gone from them because i am always there in spirit.
kind of feels like i am about to die or something. its not like i am never coming home. ill be back, though i am not sure when. i will miss blue ice cream. gap outlet. metropolis. margaritas. hugs. kisses. talks. star gazing and long walks. you really realize what you will miss, when you will no longer have it. its like now i have taken so much for granted. there is so much more that i wish i could've done. more time to spend. more focus on people instead of things. to love more deeply and not to hide so much. to respect more people and gain more respect. life is not over, i still have more lessons to learn, and this will only make me grow as a person. just growing pains all around i guess.
love you all!!
c.ALIce
Monday, April 25, 2005
20 DAYS
yes sir-ee 20 days and i am leaving. seems like it is forever away yet on my door step. its going to be hard not to have the constant encouragement around all the time and hanging out with those people that really encourage my faith. i really have no idea how long i will be there. the door is open, but the closer i get the more timid i get and the more i just want to stay here. but i have to go. not because i said i would, even though that is definately an issue, but because i feel like that is where i am supposed to be for a while. maybe, if anything, it will help me get outta this rut.
anyway, i need to get back to work. love you all!!
c.ALIce
anyway, i need to get back to work. love you all!!
c.ALIce
Friday, April 22, 2005
Lost Count
I know I have less than thirty days, but havent counted today. the puppy is adorable and i might stay just because of her...nah, better not. I'll have one of my own one day.
Today was the day of Kadie's Art Show to support her trip to Uganda. She called earlier today and reminded me. I wish i could've been there, but i had to work. Kadie, being the diamond that she is, called me afterwards to let me know how it went. I gave her a stack of pictures to sell to help her fundraiser, and she said that lots of people really liked them and that people actually bought them. I am definately the harshest critic on my stuff, so i think that no one would want to spend money on it. I guess i am wrong. She is such an incredible motivator. I wish I had the heart for it like she does. She offered to sell my art for me, but I am not sure about that. She says she still needs to pray about it. She just hates to see artists not doing anything with their art. that would be me. I sold a couple pieces a month or so ago. First time ever selling my art....i usually give it away (because i dont think its worth a price). I should really get into it though. one could make money at it, and i could use money. so if anyone is interested in original art to put on their walls...you know where i am...but now i think you have to pay for it.
Anyway, thats exciting for me.
Levi offered me a job with his company. that i am a little more timid about. It is more about designing web sites...which i have been very lax on lately. i should really get into it though. I enjoy doing it..just one of those things that is frustrating at the start because i want to know everything right from the get go. but i guess in these cases..practice makes perfect. i will get into when i get to california and have time off (while looking for a job).
anyway---tomorrow (or rather today) we are moving the parents. exciting...i love lots of open space and after all their crap is gone there will be LOTS of space. i just really dont like clutter...the less you have the better...and what you have should mean something, i guess. but i dont like lugging crap around either. so maybe after i settle down and get a permanent residence i can get lots of crap and a dog!!! oh for those days.
i have been talking to Brady online...one of my greatest online buddies...and he just renews a faith in me that men of integrity and a passion for God really DO exist. He cracks me up. Has a great personality and a contagious fire about him. Plus, he has this adorable michigan accent...he is just an overall great guy. Sucks he lives in Michigan, but all my friends live far away so i guess i should be used to it. just sucks sometimes when you would rather hang out with them. allwell.
that doesnt mean i dont love the people here as well. cause i do, because i get to see them.
well i guess that is enough for today...look below at the adorableness of puppy!!!
c.ALIce
“Jesus, lover of my soul, stir up in us a spirit of rebellion against evil. Give us a passion to fight for you, to fight for love and purity. Be a constant reminder in our hearts and minds that this life is about adventure. Let our passion be to YOU and YOUR will. Give us a surge in our souls to conquer over the things we struggle with, the things we hold on to. Be clear and concise. You are the mightiest of warriors, take each of us aside in a quiet place and motivate us, give us the pep talk we so desperately need. Your love is fantastic, adventurous and powerful. Grant us an experience with it, give us a taste. All glory to YOU because you are the author and finisher. All to you oh Lord…your lil princess.”
Today was the day of Kadie's Art Show to support her trip to Uganda. She called earlier today and reminded me. I wish i could've been there, but i had to work. Kadie, being the diamond that she is, called me afterwards to let me know how it went. I gave her a stack of pictures to sell to help her fundraiser, and she said that lots of people really liked them and that people actually bought them. I am definately the harshest critic on my stuff, so i think that no one would want to spend money on it. I guess i am wrong. She is such an incredible motivator. I wish I had the heart for it like she does. She offered to sell my art for me, but I am not sure about that. She says she still needs to pray about it. She just hates to see artists not doing anything with their art. that would be me. I sold a couple pieces a month or so ago. First time ever selling my art....i usually give it away (because i dont think its worth a price). I should really get into it though. one could make money at it, and i could use money. so if anyone is interested in original art to put on their walls...you know where i am...but now i think you have to pay for it.
Anyway, thats exciting for me.
Levi offered me a job with his company. that i am a little more timid about. It is more about designing web sites...which i have been very lax on lately. i should really get into it though. I enjoy doing it..just one of those things that is frustrating at the start because i want to know everything right from the get go. but i guess in these cases..practice makes perfect. i will get into when i get to california and have time off (while looking for a job).
anyway---tomorrow (or rather today) we are moving the parents. exciting...i love lots of open space and after all their crap is gone there will be LOTS of space. i just really dont like clutter...the less you have the better...and what you have should mean something, i guess. but i dont like lugging crap around either. so maybe after i settle down and get a permanent residence i can get lots of crap and a dog!!! oh for those days.
i have been talking to Brady online...one of my greatest online buddies...and he just renews a faith in me that men of integrity and a passion for God really DO exist. He cracks me up. Has a great personality and a contagious fire about him. Plus, he has this adorable michigan accent...he is just an overall great guy. Sucks he lives in Michigan, but all my friends live far away so i guess i should be used to it. just sucks sometimes when you would rather hang out with them. allwell.
that doesnt mean i dont love the people here as well. cause i do, because i get to see them.
well i guess that is enough for today...look below at the adorableness of puppy!!!
c.ALIce
“Jesus, lover of my soul, stir up in us a spirit of rebellion against evil. Give us a passion to fight for you, to fight for love and purity. Be a constant reminder in our hearts and minds that this life is about adventure. Let our passion be to YOU and YOUR will. Give us a surge in our souls to conquer over the things we struggle with, the things we hold on to. Be clear and concise. You are the mightiest of warriors, take each of us aside in a quiet place and motivate us, give us the pep talk we so desperately need. Your love is fantastic, adventurous and powerful. Grant us an experience with it, give us a taste. All glory to YOU because you are the author and finisher. All to you oh Lord…your lil princess.”
Judah
I'd like you to meet Judah Yaffeh. isnt she beautiful!!! we got her yesterday! she is actually my sister's dog because I am not settled enough to get one of my own. Mine's name will be Israel, and nickname him Izzi...cause i am cool, i even got cool spelling.
Judah is a weimaraner. absolutely adorable, a bit of a whiner today, but we did strip her away from her family yesterday...so i guess i can forgive that. she is going to be about 60-80 pounds. but i love big dogs.
just thought i would share her with you.
chrissi
Judah is a weimaraner. absolutely adorable, a bit of a whiner today, but we did strip her away from her family yesterday...so i guess i can forgive that. she is going to be about 60-80 pounds. but i love big dogs.
just thought i would share her with you.
chrissi
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Sunday, April 17, 2005
30 DAYS!!!
A month from today I will be getting in a car and driving cross country to my Los Angeles destination. I am excited....and SO stressed, mostly about money. Just seems like God is testing my finances, and this is SO not the time to do that! just have to remember to breathe. i would say that 99.9% of all my stress in life revolves around money. i just wish that someone would just come and release me from the torment. i would love to work just to give to others instead of trying to pay my bills. its frustrating. there are so many people in this world that have money, all i need is about 40,000 and i will be home free, that would pay off school and car...the majority of my debt, and then i could travel and volunteer for red cross or work to help others get outta debt and life out their dreams. pipedreams i guess...unless you are millionaire reading this!!! fat chance huh?
anyway. i am nervous about going, mainly for financial reasons but i am also torn between getting a career job (like salary) or continuing being freelance whatever and live a little. will i find a job that will allow me to pay my bills?? UGH, if the whole world wasnt about money!!?!?!?!?
sorry, just venting frustrations about it all.
i do miss levi. i have been thinking about him alot lately, which just makes it harder to get on with my life. thought i was so over that, thought i could be open and be able to have a relationship with another person. I am finding that difficult, he keeps telling me that i hold back too much. i admit i do. just dont need the point. not wanting to work hard at much of anything in regards to boy-girl relationships. its like if i keep moving and dont plan to stay in one place very long, then i can avoid them all together. i am so non-commital. all well....one day my prince will come and he will have to fight all the demons hanging around and climb all the walls i set up and he will rescue me.
ok i think i am done for now...
send me lotsa money so i can get outta debt
chrissi
anyway. i am nervous about going, mainly for financial reasons but i am also torn between getting a career job (like salary) or continuing being freelance whatever and live a little. will i find a job that will allow me to pay my bills?? UGH, if the whole world wasnt about money!!?!?!?!?
sorry, just venting frustrations about it all.
i do miss levi. i have been thinking about him alot lately, which just makes it harder to get on with my life. thought i was so over that, thought i could be open and be able to have a relationship with another person. I am finding that difficult, he keeps telling me that i hold back too much. i admit i do. just dont need the point. not wanting to work hard at much of anything in regards to boy-girl relationships. its like if i keep moving and dont plan to stay in one place very long, then i can avoid them all together. i am so non-commital. all well....one day my prince will come and he will have to fight all the demons hanging around and climb all the walls i set up and he will rescue me.
ok i think i am done for now...
send me lotsa money so i can get outta debt
chrissi
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
HUMOR ME
I joined UPROMISE and it allows you to have anyone be added to help you pay off your college loans. I figure if i get 100 people to sign up under me that i will have my loans paid off in no time. it is really not that much a month from one person...like i made 4.00...but times that by 100...times 12 months...see where i am going with this.
GO HERE
https://lty.s.upromise.com/displayServlet?pl=d8zVjXnI7ls$&ax=ff_inviteO
It really doesnt take that long and I can never see your information.
Humor me and sign up on my behalf....i just want to see if it really works.
thanks
c a bond
GO HERE
https://lty.s.upromise.com/displayServlet?pl=d8zVjXnI7ls$&ax=ff_inviteO
It really doesnt take that long and I can never see your information.
Humor me and sign up on my behalf....i just want to see if it really works.
thanks
c a bond
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
life not that bad
as you all know, i am very anxious to leave cincinnati and move on with my life in los angeles. i am also scared to death. i am leaving everything i have ever known. i continue to waver back and forth in my head to who i will become when i am there. i am not too worried about it. i do have this intense feeling of guilt sometimes by the way i live my life. not being who i think God wants me to be. But i also wrestle with His love for me, though i know its not an excuse, i just think that His love is bigger than my short-comings.
I am not one that really expresses whats really going on, but still speak of many things in poetic rambling because i still hold back certain parts of my life from those i know read this blog. do i think they will judge or condemn me...probably. take no offense, there are some things in life that just shouldn't be talked about...its just not proper (or so i was taught).
work isnt all that bad. Sid is talking to me again, which is a relief because he is really the only one i really talk to or hang out with. I have known him for years and we have had some pretty intense conversations. i would hate to lose that, and i thought i did. he is stubborn as all get out though. i wonder sometimes why we are even friends because we argue a lot. levi is like that too though. i guess i like the challenge of making up...or i think they are worth the effort for some reason.
tiffany is very excited about me moving there. i am literally counting down the days and trying my best to tie down all the loose ends before i go. financially i am good, except i would like to be more secure. i pretty much have a job once i get there, maybe even two. i am really not worried about it. everything seems to be working out perfectly...so far, i am sure something trajic will happen the day before i leave...such an optimist i know.
that is really the only thing interesting to talk about...of course there are other things i think about that i can go into....but i'll just keep that to myself. i am finding that i am a pretty boring person. i think this blog might be more interesting when i am in california and i can talk about my adventures with people at home without really having to talk to each and everyone. i think i will miss a couple people...but i wont know until i get there.
c.ALIce
I am not one that really expresses whats really going on, but still speak of many things in poetic rambling because i still hold back certain parts of my life from those i know read this blog. do i think they will judge or condemn me...probably. take no offense, there are some things in life that just shouldn't be talked about...its just not proper (or so i was taught).
work isnt all that bad. Sid is talking to me again, which is a relief because he is really the only one i really talk to or hang out with. I have known him for years and we have had some pretty intense conversations. i would hate to lose that, and i thought i did. he is stubborn as all get out though. i wonder sometimes why we are even friends because we argue a lot. levi is like that too though. i guess i like the challenge of making up...or i think they are worth the effort for some reason.
tiffany is very excited about me moving there. i am literally counting down the days and trying my best to tie down all the loose ends before i go. financially i am good, except i would like to be more secure. i pretty much have a job once i get there, maybe even two. i am really not worried about it. everything seems to be working out perfectly...so far, i am sure something trajic will happen the day before i leave...such an optimist i know.
that is really the only thing interesting to talk about...of course there are other things i think about that i can go into....but i'll just keep that to myself. i am finding that i am a pretty boring person. i think this blog might be more interesting when i am in california and i can talk about my adventures with people at home without really having to talk to each and everyone. i think i will miss a couple people...but i wont know until i get there.
c.ALIce
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
another day
so i did a workout yesterday. i really need to get motivated to get into shape. i want to do it before i get to california, even though much of my motivation is in california. tiffany doesnt mess around...she will drag me to the gym. nice to know, but i know i can do it on my own.
i made some money yesterday on ebay. good for me. i should really keep my mouth shut though. i was planning on using it as a savings for california, now i am obligated to give it to the parents to help with bills. i understand, but still irritating. seems like just when i get ahead there is always something there to hold me back. i want to pay off a credit card, but instead of the credit card, i have to pay a mortgage payment. i SO do not want to own a house or have any fiscal responsiblities when i grow up. i dont ever want to rely on my job or income to keep a roof over my head. i will save for years to buy a house, straight out, no loans. i know...wishful thinking. it is just a little frustrating hating to go to work, wanting so bad to leave with some sort of security financially and of course it just falls apart. i thought God was taking care of me, then ....
i love my parents. i love my family. i love many many things, but i am SO ready to have a life of my own. i cant imagine how cheryl feels. she has helped financially far more than i have. she is a better daughter than i am. carol is so broke, there is no way. watch...she will become the millionaire. i hate to complain about it. i hate to feel bad for helping those in need, but it just seems like it comes at the worst times. this house better sell soon!! i think when i get to california that i will be making more money so i can help out more. i am planning on selling my truck before i go, so i can get a car with a cheaper car payment, and better on gas milege. i am still trying to trust Him. Just hard when my idea of taking care is falling apart. the most frustrating part is that i am not making the money at work. i am broke too. i still have bills to pay, and once when i averaged 100/day now it is like 50....NOT GOOD!! thats an incredible loss. especially considering i work like 50-60 hours a week. 25 so far this week, and i still have all day tomorrow, friday and saturday. GOD PLEASE PROVIDE. 46 more days. not a whole lot of time. SO excited and scared to death at the same time. what in the world am i getting myself into?
just pray that God will provide for my family, that the house will sell and we will all find places to go. honestly i think the house would sell if mom and dad would leave when people came to see it...i wouldnt want to walk around a house with the owners still lurking around...but hey...its their house. i also wish they would just get to moving. it just keeps getting postponed week after week. by the way, i am going to need some bodies to help (sarah..your bro has friends!!) i will keep you updated. hopefully by the end of the month...was SUPPOSED to be the last of february...see my frustration!?!?!? just itching for the big change...sick of waiting around.
think that is enough bitching for today. i actually had a fun day. work wasnt so bad, made alright money, and had some fun tables. i think i got to the point that i am not about trying to make all the management and owners happy, just the people i wait on (because ultimately, they determine whether or not i have a job!). i need to get resume crap together though. ugh....one more thing to do!!!
c.ALIce
i made some money yesterday on ebay. good for me. i should really keep my mouth shut though. i was planning on using it as a savings for california, now i am obligated to give it to the parents to help with bills. i understand, but still irritating. seems like just when i get ahead there is always something there to hold me back. i want to pay off a credit card, but instead of the credit card, i have to pay a mortgage payment. i SO do not want to own a house or have any fiscal responsiblities when i grow up. i dont ever want to rely on my job or income to keep a roof over my head. i will save for years to buy a house, straight out, no loans. i know...wishful thinking. it is just a little frustrating hating to go to work, wanting so bad to leave with some sort of security financially and of course it just falls apart. i thought God was taking care of me, then ....
i love my parents. i love my family. i love many many things, but i am SO ready to have a life of my own. i cant imagine how cheryl feels. she has helped financially far more than i have. she is a better daughter than i am. carol is so broke, there is no way. watch...she will become the millionaire. i hate to complain about it. i hate to feel bad for helping those in need, but it just seems like it comes at the worst times. this house better sell soon!! i think when i get to california that i will be making more money so i can help out more. i am planning on selling my truck before i go, so i can get a car with a cheaper car payment, and better on gas milege. i am still trying to trust Him. Just hard when my idea of taking care is falling apart. the most frustrating part is that i am not making the money at work. i am broke too. i still have bills to pay, and once when i averaged 100/day now it is like 50....NOT GOOD!! thats an incredible loss. especially considering i work like 50-60 hours a week. 25 so far this week, and i still have all day tomorrow, friday and saturday. GOD PLEASE PROVIDE. 46 more days. not a whole lot of time. SO excited and scared to death at the same time. what in the world am i getting myself into?
just pray that God will provide for my family, that the house will sell and we will all find places to go. honestly i think the house would sell if mom and dad would leave when people came to see it...i wouldnt want to walk around a house with the owners still lurking around...but hey...its their house. i also wish they would just get to moving. it just keeps getting postponed week after week. by the way, i am going to need some bodies to help (sarah..your bro has friends!!) i will keep you updated. hopefully by the end of the month...was SUPPOSED to be the last of february...see my frustration!?!?!? just itching for the big change...sick of waiting around.
think that is enough bitching for today. i actually had a fun day. work wasnt so bad, made alright money, and had some fun tables. i think i got to the point that i am not about trying to make all the management and owners happy, just the people i wait on (because ultimately, they determine whether or not i have a job!). i need to get resume crap together though. ugh....one more thing to do!!!
c.ALIce
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