time gets away

i feel like i write on here alot but i guess it has been a couple days. for those that dont know, yes i am living in illinois, yes i am living with my "boyfriend" (still feels sorta weird to call him that), yes, i am happy. it may come as a shock to some of you that i would decide to live with my beaux, especially only after knowing him for a week. its been about 2 and a half weeks since i met him. i was never one to be patient about anything, and as much as some of you dont agree with my decision, i feel very much at peace about it. thats the thrill of living life, is that you dont have to mimic it after anyone elses. and for only knowing him for 2 weeks, i feel like i have known him for a lifetime.
i miss everyone, but its not like in LA was i was desperately homesick. I definately wish that i lived closer to everyone, but its kind of a start over to be here and not know anyone, and making new friends. last night we played poker with like 13 other people. it was a very age-diverse group (and yall know how i love to flirt with the older men)...it was very fun. i actually did pretty well for not have ever played before. but i would like to be able to call people up and hang out or grab dinner or blue ice cream or long talks on the deck or go dancing, and i miss all those things, but i am here.
today we slept in and then Nat drove me to Peoria to show me around and how to get around construction. we went to lunch at cheddars, pretty good food. and we bought madden 2006, and i am afraid that i lost my boyfriend to the evil that is called "xbox". just kidding. i actually played with him for a bit, its fun, but frustrating because when i play video games, its just pushing random buttons to see what happens, but with madden, ya kinda have to know, although the computer does alot of the work for you. i am going to conspire and learn it while he is at work so i can kick his butt when we do play! maybe not, i am not sure my attention span is that good.
so i did get a job. I went to jonahs in peoria (seafood restaurant). prices are comparable to encore so i am not really worried about the money making, but i am also looking into still getting a day job because i want to pay some stuff off. i was very excited to get the job because i am broke and it seems like a great place to work, the manager loves me already (but really, how could you not?). so i start on tuesday night. the part that really sucks is that is the opposite of nat's schedule and i have a feeling i will be working weekends, so that means i will have to visit during the week. Nat and i were talking today about when he can come meet everyone, just seems like our schedules arent in sync for about a month. i really want you all to meet him, but being that i have so many friends, i also dont want to bombard him. mom wanted me to come down labor day weekend so that he come to the bond reunion on saturday and the burchett on sunday....are you crazy?? i wouldn't even put MYSELF through such torture. its one thing to meet all my friends at the same time, its TOTALLY different to meet all my family in two days. i mean, I AVOID family functions, not that they are not a great family, but all the questions....and weird looks and unknown faces and i just dont like it.
ya know, i really think that i will marry this guy. its so weird to say that, but at the same time, i really cant imagine myself with anyone else. i already love his family (future favorite sister in law being nessa) and dad is great and mom is yet to be determined. but there are just so many things i love about him, i dont want it to get old too quickly and being taken for granted anytime soon, i think thats what scares me the most. i just dont want it to fade away and then look back in 6 months and be bored. i dont really foresee that happening, but it still is something that crosses my mind. but i guess i feel like if it ever got to that point, there would be no one else to get through it with.
so life right now is good. i am looking forward to having a job, i think if i didnt have one much longer i would go stir crazy. but i keep myself pretty busy, its like a full time job looking for a job!! i also have some other things that i am looking into, so that should keep my days busy until i get a day job i am willing to take (i figure i can be choosey now that i have some means of income).
i kind of feel bad that i am not sharing any deep profound revelations about life, like i used to. i guess in the hussle and bussle of all this newness, i have pretty much thought about the man, the job, and all the things i want to do. if i write too much about the boy, ya'll will get bored. you all seem very supportive, despite the fact my time there was limited. its hard to get used to. i am definately trying to find those balances in life. the balance of boyfriend and friends/family, the balance of my time and not smothering, the balance of job and paying bills. i guess my view of life has transferred from where do i want to be and what do i want to do, to what will i do today and what can i do today to get me where i want to be. can you really take life more than one day at a time?
i love you all!!
c.ALIce